I'm Sorry!

For all of y'all who use Google Reader, I'm sure you see that my blog has three new posts if you haven't read it since Saturday. I can't help it! There is so much to blog about.. or wait.. is it just that I have so much time on my hands that I would rather spend it blogging...??

So we have two weeks of school left, and then the glorious exam week. Lord help me.
I hope I make good on my Stats Exam, and my Geology exam. Those two are the only ones that I'm worried about.. Partially because I can't pay attention because my professor is boring!!!
I'm glad I only have to take three exams though, so I can spend the day studying or whatever I need to do... And then today I get the feedback from my IP&T Teacher that tells me the topic I've chosen for my Project #2 is too broad!! So I'm just going to start all over again and drill down and get it done before the last day of class. Don't you just hate that.. you work on something and then you have to start all over or make it fit their criteria? I mean come on.." Strengthen Principle #2" Nahhh... Just kidding!!

Today well Yesterday, was a great Sabbath Day. I really felt the Spirit in all of the talks and in the classes. Our ward just stayed together and had joint Priesthood/RS today because not all of us were back from Thanksgiving break. But today one of our lessons was on prayer and it just really made me think that I need to get back into the habit of having heartfelt meaningful prayers to my Heavenly Father. He is real, he is my Father and he doesn't want to hear me sit there and rattle off the same sentences to him every night.. I'm sure he would probably roll his eyes and say.. Jessica, I've heard this a million times already.. Of course we all know he'd be more loving than that. But think about it, He listens to every one of our prayers, whether they are spoken out loud or said in our hearts. He knows what I need before I even pray for it! So if I pray for something I don't need.. He knows it. I think being out at college it's hard for me to find the place to pray, somewhere that I can go and be alone and just speak out loud to my Heavenly Father. People are always running around the apartment, there are places to go things to do and there never seems to be any silence where you can just talk aloud and say all of the things that you want to say. I do have a testimony of prayer and I know if it's importance, but I admit, I do need to work on it.

----I know this is a long blog, bear with me guys-----

In one of my previous posts I talked about how I don't have to be perfect. I talked with my Mom today and I told her that after all of these lessons on prayer I just felt like I was an "unprofitable servant". Even though the use of unprofitable servant is applied to us because we could never repay Christ for his Sacrifice. I just felt like I wasn't good enough, like I wasn't trying my best, like I wasn't perfect. And then my Mom told me that Heavenly Father doesn't expect us to be perfect. There is this "Quest for Perfection" that we are all trying to attain but most of us just want to reach it right now. That can't happen in one sitting. I once read a quote that said that we shouldn't try to go over the top on perfecting ourselves in all of the Gospel principles at one time because that can cause us to crash. If we ever try to be "Perfect" or we try to do everything the best we possibly can and then we fall out of the habit, there will come a time when we look back and say... oh man, I have fallen off the path so far I'm nothing like I used to be, I don't feel the same, I am so far from perfect. You know what I say? GOOD! I'm glad you aren't perfect that means you still have more to learn, more to accomplish, and a long time left in mortality, that is what we are here for. We have all of eternity to become perfect.

Well since it is 2:00 in the morning here, I think I better let you go and let myself lay in my bed and stare at the ceiling because I took a 3 and 1/2 hour nap. Pray that I will do well on my exams and that I will be able to pass all of them this semester so I don't have to retake any classes :) Take care!