Bitter

I've always been one to expect the worst of things. So when things turn out better than expected, I'm more excited. And when things turn out for the worst, I am already prepared.

Let's just say. I expected the worst and I prepared for it. But it hurts like Hell. Yeah, I said hell. Forgive me for saying the word but that's the only word that can describe my feelings right now. So I'm going to be bitter for a while and hope that it doesn't cause me to be mean or too honest with people.

At the same time, I understand there's always a plan and I'm grateful for it. But like I told a group of people tonight, I have a problem with patience. Slowly, I'm learning. I title this year, "The Year of Patience". Ha!

I'm going to go running or something tomorrow, or pick a flower. I'll go back and find myself again. And load the train up in no time.. even though it might take a little longer than expected. And one day, the train will stay docked at the station.