Ah, my life sucks.

Okay, someone please tell me why things have to be complicated?
Why is it that one day you are enjoying your life and everything is good and BAM! Something unexpected hits you in the face and then you just concentrate all of your time and effort trying to read out signs and signals and analyze things and then your whole day is gone. Okay Okay, I really don't waste my whole day but spare moments are devoted to thinking about things that bother me. As we all should find time to think throughout the day...

My cousin is in Italy!! I really do miss him, even though we didn't see each other that much when he lived right down the street just knowing he was here was good enough and now he is on the other side of the world serving a mission, growing up. It's weird to think that we were best friends when we were little kids and now here we are, not really knowing what the other one does and not spending a lot of time together. Needless to say I think I've written him about 4 or 5 letters while he was in the MTC so I'm sure he knows exactly what I'm doing with my time to the point of falling alseep in my letters.

Then my other cousin that is on a mission in California, for a while we didn't even talk to each other. In fact, he said he remembers when I first moved to Decatur and I said hey to him in the hallway and he just ignored me. haha Now we are really good friends and we tell each other a lot of stuff. He is shy at first but he is a great guy and I'm so lucky to have him as my cousin!

My other cousin on a mission in Uganda, we don't really talk that much because we neve really lived close to each other but I enjoyed getting to know him better when we made our trip out to Utah and spent Christmas's at my grandma's even though we went to see a movie on a Sunday night.. I know we are sinners, but I consider it family bonding time ;)

I feel so blessed to have been born into the family that I was born into. I have a million cousins to turn to. They are as young as 2 and as old as about 60. I love them all and I love the fact that no matter what age we are, we can all talk to each other and be interested in each other's lives. I am grateful for the Church and for the emphasis that is put on the family. The family is the center of God's plan and I testify of that. It is the home that makes law abiding citizens, caring and compassionate individuals, and well contributing members of society. I am thankful for my parents and for their knowledge of the gospel and for teaching me right from wrong so that one day I can pass what I know onto my family.

So I guess my life doesn't really suck when I think about all of the things that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with. I love him, I love His Gospel and I love his Son Jesus Christ. I know that no matter what comes my way, if I trust in Heavenly Father and always remember that he has a plan for me I will be kept safe and fulfill the mission I was meant to fulfill. I don't know when everything will happen, but I love this part of my life and I love not knowing what is "around the riverbend". I'm finding out who I am and how to live in this world and I would never change any of it.

-Jessica